Friday, June 29, 2007
Updates...
Nowadays, I'm kind of bored during lunch hour. haha. cos dun really wanna watch movies online anymore. Think sometimes they are a waste of time. Haha. Guess i still prefer to read books and to blog while i have the time and feel like blogging.
Let's see! Firstly, there's the gala premiere. When i reached there together with wan tian and desmond, then i realised that it's a gala premiere. This means there will be lots of stars around and there's even a red carpet awaiting shuqi at the doorstep to ang mo kio hub.haha. We went to buy Mos and then went back outside to wait for shuqi. After some superstars like Zeng Yong Ling and Chen Guo Qiang arrived, I saw my colleague leave and so we decided to go in too. The cinema is located on the top most floor and it's already crowded by the time we reached. Apparently, we should not have taken such a hurried dinner as there's reception there while we wait for shuqi and the minister to kick start the opening ceremony.
The show's really funny.haha. It kept the whole cinema laughing continuously throughout la..haha.especially a gal sitting in out row. Lol. So those who would want a good show just to relax for the weekend should go watch "My wife is a gangster 3".
Next, i met up with the 30 gang and we went to eat Fish & Co. Anyway, the guy who served us at the door kept us arguing about whether his/her sex issue. my first impression of him (we later decided that it should be "he") is that he's male but the moment he came nearer, i thought he's female and later when he gave us a colourful speech (it's more like an oral examination passage in which we often over pronounce and inunciate with all the overtones and all) while sitting us a table, i thought he's female again until i noticed his adam's apple (pointed out by wt) lol.It feels great to catch up with everyone (hai.dm's not here) though i sometimes feel that the feel of the outings has sort of changed. hmmm. i think it's just me and my sensitive thoughts la. We took some pictures and then went home.
Then came sat which is the day Krystal turns 2!! Her father's gonna treat our family to dinner. Yeah! Anyway, she turned up with her hair tied up into 2 ponytails..haha and she looked soooo cute. At the age of 2, she's able to tell you the english and chinese names of most of the things she sees and she can even ans in near complete sentences. lol. She's just so smart..haha. We went to a restaurant at One North. (can't rmb the name though-short term memory and it's deteoriating...a worrying sign) I really like the ambience of the place. According to my dad, the whole stretch of restaurants at One North now occupy these bunglalows that are previously known as "White Bunglalows" and belong to the British Army during the colonial times and World War 2. I like the design of the buildings. I duno why i like these victorian style buildings or very chinese temple like buildings.haha. and since our table is in the backyard, we are simply sitting right under a star-studded sky. Wonderful! I hope i may someday own such a place. Well, we had a splendid meal starting with BeiJing Kao Ya. oh my. My second time eating it only since the time i ate in China when i'm in p5. Though the food is good, most of our attention is still on the birthday gal..haha. We went home after that and cut her cake (a Pooh bear one). and she made us play with her until about ten plus.. Tired day but warm and heartfelt.
Mostly i want to talk about the book BoonHan lent me called "Sheng Xia Guang Nian". Since he already warned me, i wasn't surprised to find some of the content disturbing. Anyway, they're still manageable. haha. You see...it's a homosexual book. However, some of the ideas in the book are really thought provoking. I really wonder how do we define the line where friendship turns into relationship? Between opposite sex individuals and between individuals of the same sex? What if one day, you really found out that someone you like someone whom you always thought to be your best friend and what if you guys are of the same sex? Would the friendship be lost then? Will you guys continue with a relationship? This is what the book discussed.
Another point. As we grow older, we learn to accept the feeling of loneliness. Everyone hates that feeling i'm sure. As we grow more independent (which is expected of an adult), we segragate ourselves from others as a being. This step pushes people out of our realm of trust and friendship sometimes degrade to mere acquantiances or worse, not even present at all. I thought we are communal creatures? I thought we always highlight the importance of teamwork. I thought we always emphasise the more important things in life is love, care and concern. Our feelings and not material gains. Then why do everyone grow up in the opposite direction? It doesn't seem to make sense. Indeed, as i grow older, i realise that we are talking less and less to our friends. When we are young, we'll exchange secrets with our friends, expecting them to keep them safe for us. now? we don't. Everyone of us, to a certain extent, has a mask that we hide under and never reveal our true selfs. Much as we want to share things with others, we don't talk about them to people anymore. i suppose we just have to accept this as a fact of life.
Been chatting via email with Chujie these days while working..really helped to occupy my otherwise boring times..lol. and we talked about issues that i forced myself to forget. Sometimes when i see him, i would regret not accepting his offer to start that time. I didn't have the courage. I thought i didn't know him well enough. I thought his confession also a bit...disappointing..haha. but at that time i forgot to think about how difficult it must have been. hai. There's so many things la..and it's been 2 plus years now anyway..so what's there left to think about right? and yet...i will sometimes think of it. esp after this year's stupid forwarded msg and stuff. and times when we meet up for gatherings. i duno. i think since i'm not sure of what i am feeling. It's better to leave it as it is..yup. Let things be ba. yet i will sometimes wished that we could have tried. Whatever...it's so long ago liao.
Next week's camp liao. a bit apprehensive after hearing things about the camps. Hope it won't be that bad la. I wanted to go as i know no one in my course and i don't want to feel out of place when school starts. lol=) Pray and hope for the best.
Hmmm... i should try the Secret..haahha...focus on the gd things.feel good and that thing will come. Let's try and see...lol
Cya...next next week liao.since i only update using the office comp. i can never use my home com for long nowadays. an hour or 2 is already a blessing..haha.
Xiu Min @ 12:15 PM
