Friday, July 18, 2008
God bless her..
Thanks...everything has finally settled down..hopefully by next fri, it would jus have been a passing nightmare..yupp.but still wed was one of the longest days in my life.duno how i survived the day too..oh wells.and so sry to wt,pl and ss's bash, omaha's gathering at laoda's place and bie's outing for kbox.hais.i'm sry guys.i din mean to pangseh! wonder why i'm writing this when most of u don't even noe the existence of this blog.lol.okok...anw.wana say thanks too for ur company on tt day.even though it was jus a short trip to sch.still it meant a lot and helped me pull thru the day...kinda feel bad for bothering ya too.sry..and i was kinda disappointed when i din see ya at the end of class=X nvm, i nv wana experience such a day again...hopefully.well, health's still the most impt thg in this world. 留着青山在，哪怕没柴烧! ahh..i need to remind myself of my chinese.lol
now i've got to mug for the exam on the 23rd and get an 'S'! before i can relax and enjoy the rest of the hols..arghh..it's so fast til term starts.there's still many thgs i wana do b4 tt.cycling, swimming, kbox, movies, our slpover, steamboat!!!! but the clock has started to tick! siannnn....
i will start to dread tuition again..for it would be under a stressful condition to face them and maintain patience all the time.and the way i was treated recently by her..hais.makes me wana switch to private! gip oso doesn't seem a viable option now.i really wana experience campus life overseas.having only been overseas once in my entire life...sad rite? and it wld be my only chance to study overseas i guess....but thgs aren't lookin gd. why is it soo hard=(
alrites...guess i nid to go study a bit and not end up watching shows or chatting.self restraint..grrr...
Xiu Min @ 11:45 PM
Monday, July 7, 2008
some reflections before the big2!
So sry..guess i can never be active online.it's jus not me ba..not wif my zi4bi4 character...ahh.hais.oh wells..at least i've worked hard and kept this blog for a year le..hooray!
jus back frm camp..a yr passed soo quickly..it's hard to imagine.time flew past just like this..the camp is over and if ya asked me wat i gained frm it? i seriously dun really noe..haha.i guess i had fun wif jessie,mx,sk and got to know wc and mt..other than tt.i haven't really known any new ppl even though we tried to mix wif the omaha freshies..oh wells.i jus get the feelin they jus wana bond wif themselves somehow.hmmm..nvm.as long as they haf fun! guess this shall add to the uni life experience..which i dun wan to b onli mugging..=X
reaching the big2...i'm so old le.hard to imagine.if the current lifespan is 100, i'll alr be one fifth down the road...i'm glad i'm still alive tt's for sure.but yet, as humans, i realised i still have many desires, dreams for the years to come and it's fair share of regrets for the past 20 yrs as well.i haven't become the person i wana be and yet i'm suddenly 20.the thought seems kinda scary...it seems like a recognition of failure, of achieving nothing even after so long. hais..
changing for the better me after 20! i shall work hard at it...but somethings jus are not within ur control.perhaps...it's meant to be like tt.someone like me doesn't deserve it...
Xiu Min @ 8:53 PM
