Xiu Min
10July
21-ish
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Kongens Lyngby, Denmark
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你在的第五季
冷的天空没表情
月亮忘记了阴晴
孤独它抓我好近好近

在想念的第五季
忽然街上开不见你
夜色暗得多离奇
而我依然能够做我自己

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firstly....HAPPY 21st to myself! lol..kk.lame....=p
been soo long since i last updated here...well.loads happened...i'm kinda lazy to update the stuff...hah.will post pics sometime later ba.

well...turning 21 happened all too quickly and it's going to be over in the next 30 mins which is the time i have to finish this post.....held mixed feelings the whole of today.reflected on my life during the brief moments when i'm alone today.all sorts of memories flooded back......thgs i enjoyed.thgs i regret.thgs i cry over.thgs i cheer for...etc.etc....how one experiences life is solely based on our own decisions alone! ....reaching adulthood...i begin to be clearer and clearer abt wad i want my life to become...my dreams, aspirations, hopes, the simple thgs in life tt r impt and precious to me.i wan to be able to kp them forever..and those wishes..i wan to be able to achieve them..but before i move forward...i wana say thks to everyone! for playing an impt part of my life.....(can't mention everyone..but if u're reading this.the chance of u being one of them is like 99% cos i dun spread the address...lol=p) ....esp to those who spent today wif me..let's stay as close as always alrights? right into our tai tai days when we age with grace and beauty! lol....thks for the enjoyable day!
sighsss....but for some part of the day....some thoughts kept bothering me.tried to push them away til a later date but they're always there to stay.....zzz.
my 21st wishes.....as long and as many as they are.....i wish sincerely tt they'll all come true..

arghhss..i was a typical example of an ignorant blur sotong today!!! went to collect my residence permit without bringing my passport!! had to go back home and go back and get it....wasn't feeling very well and yet i wanted it to get it over and done with...plus! the weather is sooo hot today..and walking to United Square was like a stretch without shelter laa....sighssss...oh wells.there's some gains to the trip.i met my cousin on the way back home to take my passport.

and so....i spent the day rotting at the national library@bugis...researching on my supposed euro trip.well, at least i did something i have been wanting to do except tt i had hoped it was to read some nice thriller etc. and not research....haa! nxt up! read nice novel in coffee bean/gloria jeans alone.okies..i sound like a loner=X but oh wells...feeling lonely these days.but it's ok lah...i sometimes jus like to slack alone=p think it's nt too bad as imagined actually...but yay!!! had zp to accompany for dinner=) thanks gal!

expectations...disappointments..

and.....David Cook! i like his voice! yay!

one of his songs....

Lie lyrics

You whispered that you were getting tired,
Got a look in your eye,
Looks a lot like goodbye.
Hold on to your secrets tonight.
Don't want to know I'm ok with this silence
It's truth that I don't want to hear

You're hiding regret in your smile
There's a storm in your eyes I've seen coming for awhile
Hold on to the past tense tonight
Don't say a word,
I'm ok with the quiet.
The truth is gonna change everything.

So lie to me and tell me that it's gonna be alright
So lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the night
I don't mind if you wait before you tear me apart,
Look me in the eye,
Lie, lie, lie.

Lie, lie, lie.

I know that there's no turning back.
If we put too much light on this we'll see through all the cracks.
Let's stay in the dark one more night.
Don't want to know I'm ok with the silence.
It's truth that I don't want to hear.

So lie to me and tell me that it's gonna be alright
So lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the night
I don't mind if you wait before you tear me apart
So look me in the eye,
And lie, lie, lie.

Don't want to believe in this ending
Let the cameras roll on,
Keep pretending
Tomorrow's all wrong if you walk away
Just stay

So lie to me and tell me that it's gonna be alright
So lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the night
I don't mind if you wait before you tear me apart
Look me in the eye,
And lie, lie, lie.

So lie to me and tell me that we're gonna be ok
So lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the day
I don't mind if you wait before you tear me apart
Look me in the eye,
And lie, lie, lie.

still the same....still the same..arghhss....

shall start from where i left off regarding the run!....so here's how it went.we met up at Eunos and lh drove us to ecp! as time was running out and we couldn't find a parking lot still, jane and i went to find a toilet to change into the singlet....after which, we called the rest and arranged to meet up at a particular location....and we waited....and waited and waited..calling was useless cos no one brought their phones with them..arghhhss.in the end, we left in search of the registration counter to find out whether they had started the race already but there was no such registration!! and so we decided to walk back to the meeting point.yet, we carn find them still.and so we decided to run back to the finishing line..and that's when we finally saw them and met up! omg...so i only ran like 1+ km =p....kinda disappointed! i was thinking we could all have fun and run tgt! it would have been soooo nice! the first time the gals had an outing by ourselves! sighssss....but nvm.the day ended off nicely for me.though it was kinda out of my character.

mon...met up wif sy for lunch! super long nv had lunch wif her le..went MOF since she had wanted to eat there last wk but i wasn't free..as usual.she dressed up so nicely and i felt so cui beside her=X had 30% off the bill cos we're students....and so we wondered how long we can enjoy such offers before we have to surrender our matric cards! lol=p after tt,went bras basah to find a frame for my cross-stitch while she bought her tuner.reminded me of the days when we used to go there after our co practices to buy strings.....the same auntie is still there to serve us!

tues...met up wif simon,kevin and viknesh@ps to discuss our euro trip! it was a nice discussion! all of us anticipated on going to many places since none of us had actually stepped foot in europe before.it was exciting just discussing our options and what we can expect to tour.....eventually, having settled on the 4 cities, we started planning the route and all...but what's really bothering now is the ever increasing expenses!!! after giving it some serious thought, i'm beginning to wonder whether i should even spend this amt of $...is it really worth it for the experience?? or mayb i shld just forgo the whole idea! and stay in sg....well.there's always the up side of staying home..i get to meet prof poh!whom all the seniors say is the best prob in bie! ooooh....

wed...we went to the spca! haha! sooo cool lah! but i oso realised i'm afraid of big dogs....while we were there, there's this pair of golden retrievers waiting to be adopted and the family who's applied to adopt them came but somehow, only one of them was adopted....sighs..u can't be ignorant of the look in the other one's eyes even though we don't know dog language..but such immense sadness.it made all of us soo emo.there was silence in all the kennels as if all of them understood his pain.Awwww....i hope some kind soul adopts 'ajax' soons....(tt's the dog tt's left behind...think his partner is called 'alfie' or the other way round).

thurs...supposedly there's lab today after having postponed it from wed...but i awoke to a sms in my phone saying tt my supervisor have some urgent matters to attend to and it's postponed to friday which is tml! oh!! msged ss to tell her the good news and ask abt the slpover! and they cldn't arrive at a conclusion.and then at night....they confirmed to go over! arghhsss...and now, i'm emo-ing alone at home while they're all at ss's place!!! kk..technically not all..cos pl din go as well...but yah! u get wad i mean =( i shall continue to emo!!!! ppl, come fetch me pls! lol=p

but yah....after today, i hope i can finally take a big step forward!

just returned from lab not long ago....been goin lab every wkday since last thurs.hmmm.and because i was the only one ard to help him this wk, felt i really learnt more this 3 days.beginning to have doubts over my ability to step into the research field.seeing what the other ppl in the lab do their work....even though they're chatting in chinese terms abt fiber optics, which in itself is very chim cos u noe wad i mean (imagining studying physics in chinese!!!), the things they discuss abt is like out of my capacity to understand....and abt my own research.jus testing one parameter has sooo many problems.software+hardware prob.zzzz....i wana watch my angels&demons! =(

wells...but i guess being busy is gd...i have less time to emo abt things....dun wana return to my state of ultimate emo-ness like tt wk.lol.but it oso means i'm the culprit to bangseh all the planned outings etc.feel so guilty and sad...hais.....and i was just informed that results is out in two days time!!! so fast lah.i haven't even played at all.ahhhh! dun dare to think abt it.*prays hard* i haven't had my fair share of play lah.....oh.and i was intending to train a bit for my fun run on sunday..but i'm like in lab all these days.and out on the wkends.......i nid to exercise man! think i'll be walking behind everyone on sunday...lol=p and to think tt one of my dreams is to get that stan chart t-shirt!!! wells..i think it's realli nice!

hmmmm..are somethgs tt easy to forget?does telling urself nt to think abt it works? or will tt simply jus bury it behind some cobwebs only to be driven out when you spring clean the nxt time? sighs...at least for me, i carn!

i highlighted my hair!!!! think everyone's shock tt i'll ever do tt.lol.....as for the reason.........oh wells.nvm.sighs.

ciao!

the exams are over once again....and i'm halfway through completing my course!! wow..time really flew.

sighs...however, the past wk was spent mostly at my ah gong's wake....regrets regrets regrets...and many other thgs to emo abt...zzz.it's a horrible wk.but i've finally managed to go through it. ohwells....perhaps i really can go through thgs alone.......and for those who knew.thanks for ur help! it really helped me pull through those days=) and also for trying to keep me company in the day....you know who you are.thanks a lot! sighs...regrets is about one of my worst fears in life i guess.having experienced it in a span of 6 mths.first my uncle and now my ah gong.life is really unpredictable.....=(

had a super different experience today..reported to work wif lh.and realised tt we're supposed to raise funds for non-profit organisation today which the company called 'sales'...zz.like how can this be sales? i mean when i say i'm a volunteer and ask for donations, i don't expect to be paid for it.and i simply carn imagine myself doing this for pay..so i just quit after helping them today..not gona take their $ too.somehow it's agst my conscience.had a long talk with lh on the bus all the way home...we both realised how different our world is from theirs.besides the fact tt they smoke etc.and though they are super nice ppl.....but their meaning and expectation from a job is so different from mine.even though this is a temp job, i still can't accept it somehow...=X anw..it's my first time doing house-house fund raising...had a wonderful experience (after i decided that i wasn't goin to take the pay and is simply helping out)...there really are kind souls out there unlike wat i envisioned but the world oso has it's fair share of the rich and selfish.sighs...wells.and i am not that 伟大 as to do this kind of job everyday without pay.think i'll help them out once in a while when i receive their emails......

this means i need to get another job....lol. and i wonder when boss will ask us to go down for lab again lah..kinda miss lab too.

oooh.and i found one of my fav jap drama...super old one.think i watched like in sec sch or sumthg.cos the songs are super nice.....if anyone have the soundtrack can send me??? =) it's the drama "kamisama mou sukoshi dake" thanks!!!

White Horse
Taylor Swift

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause
I honestly believed in you
Holdin' on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should have known, I should have known

That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

Maybe I was naïve,
Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
I had so many dreams about you and me.
Happy endings;
Now I know

I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness,
Begging for me
Just like I always wanted,
But I'm so sorry

Cause Im not your princess
This aint a fairytale
Im gonna find someone, Some day
Who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world,
That was a small town
There in my rearview mirror,
Disappearing now.
And it's too late for you and your White Horse,
Now its too late for you and your White Horse
To catch me now.

Oh whoa whoa whoa-oh
Try and catch me now
Whoa-Oh
It's too late
To catch me now.