Sunday, February 22, 2009
I've decided...
I've finally clicked the "accept" button!!!! oh my...you won't know how long i doodled over it..sighs.but oh wells, i think deep down in my heart i'm already decided...i think i can't live with the regret...so now, unless there's really no one else going or people tt i really cannot tolerate living with for 4 mths...i shld b goin to.....DENMARK!!! =) ahhs...now i'm going to chiong for $$$$....join the qiang qian yi zu! =X sighs.i need it =(
oh wells...there're super a lot of things that i had to ponder.security issues.independent living, independent studying, zero comfort zone, socialisation, mental strength etc......it was a hard time crossing all those barriers i think but i need to accept this challenge. i need to work hard at it. i hope i dun let myself down. i noe i'm not there yet...no! i'm so far from it but i'll start working on them today! right this minute....i can do it!
sighs.the thought of goin overseas also let me ponder a lot of things...will things change when i return....there're some things which i hold dear now that i duno whether it will stay the same when i return.i carn afford to lose it.....carn bear to think of this.but i guess i carn think too much.there're things tt carn b helped...much as i have tried so much.it still ends up the same as before.wat i really felt carn b put across, carn b appreciated, carn b understood.....
Xiu Min @ 1:08 AM
