Tuesday, May 22, 2007
I'm feeling lost...=(
hai..I received the NUS letter last week. After waiting for so long, i realised they didn't accept me into Engin..and so the choices are now:
1. go NUS and take life sciences but it seems that you will most probably end up in some research institutions or teach.
2. go NTU and take bioengin..that's quite gd and i like the career prospects though it's still quite new in the industry for now. However, I sort of don't have confidence in physics anymore...and i'm sure it'll require just as much complicated maths formulas and chem theories.hai...with my results so bad, i don't know whether i can survive that 4 years.
3. appeal online for NUS via common engineering route then specialise in bioengin in 2nd year. However, this is risky. What if i can't get in bioengin? or chem engin? The probability of this happening is actually very large considering the kind of students they take in. hai..and maybe i'll end up with triple E or mech and that's really going to kill me...lols.
hai.so frustrating. NTU is so far. Think it takes me like one and a half hours to get there which accumulates to three hours of travelling a day. When am i going to find time to study, do tutorials and revise? Oh...and prepare for the tuition lessons for the weekends? I still need to prepare worksheets etc. arghhh....if i stay in hostel? i don't think i can find a hostel mate...think everyone already have a partner liao...=( and actually, i don't really anticipate hostel life la..It'll be fun, but i guess i won't want to stay for the long term.
Qy just told me that it's super easy to fail in NTU, cos they don't have the bell curve in NUS. Thus, fail means fail. Aiyo...yet another concern to deter me from going. Hai...and i'm sure my relatives are going to be murmuring about me going NTU..afterall, i have always been doing well..and they would have expected me to go with my sis to NUS. so how? what should i do? or should i go do applied chem? but my confidence level for that is also very low...hmmm..maybe i should compare the confidence levels of both...hmmm
Arghhh....frustrating ar.
hai...i think i'm quite a failure...seems that i really don't have anyone to talk to who will listen to what i have to say.. i know i'm nagging. But i really need to talk about my options myself when i can't make up my mind. So, guess that's the reason i blog. Since i never tell anyone the address...lol=)
Xiu Min @ 1:53 PM
