Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Convincing Myself...
Ask my mom to help me post that form A.. Hai..I have to steel my heart now.I'm going to take life science. I'm going to work hard to get a double major regardless of what i do. Drop all thoughts of Bioengin...hence, this post shall consist of all my reasons for not going. Somehow, writing it now will convince myself that i've made the right choice.
1) NTU is too far. Since i'm not very good in physics, that's going to be a major factor as i won't have enough time to study well...hai
2) Engineering, though a professional degree, is not really suited for me since i've never really did well in physics all these while...hai..but somehow the career's what i kind of really wanna do...but i'm sure life science can do the same thing too...though the research will be from a different aspect i guess but i should be able to contribute more from the life science aspect.
3) Compared to studying engin, i have more confidence in science. Also, i should be able to figure out more things on my own in life science than engin. Having gone through my 2 years in physics with mostly my friends to help me...and yet i didn't do well..This really detered me from going to engin..
4) I switched from econs to physics in JC and i've always thought whether i would have done better in econs. I don't want this to happen again..
5) I can still take a minor in materials science and engin or biophysics which is also in bioengin if i really wanna study it..Besides, after the basic degree. If i do well, i can always continue studying part-time etc and do post-grad bioengin=) but i guess that's gonna be really difficult..(so...just let me dream..haha)
6) NUS...my sis's there. her bf's there. Ah Ming gor gor's there. My friends are all there.wt.qy.zp.ss.pl....
7) If i do take bioengin, it's gonna be a tough 4 years ahead. I'll be happier in NUS so long as i can convince myself and that i won't regret giving up bioengin.
If it had been NUS who have given me the degree, i would have gone. Hmmm...perhaps i should have gone appeal...which starts today. If i get it, then i'll go. If not i shall be content with life science=)
Hai...why is everything packed into this period...I can't really enjoy my week leading up to the MayDay concert this sat! I still have to prepare for lessons this wk, esp english as there's a new prc coming to class... Hai.Anyways, there's a really encouraging thing last Sunday. One of my students who has some learning disorder. He managed to pass his Science for the first time and with 60+ marks! I'm just so happy for him..haha.well..and another girl also passed her science..59.5...=) Think this is the joy of teaching for teachers and it does give us a lot of drive and motivation...
Perhaps. I would really enjoy a career in teaching..haha...who knows? I guess everything's fated. I shouldn't have been so bent on doing things that i'm not good at just to prove that i can do it. Perhaps that's what Mr Wee had been telling me that time i was thinking of whether i wanted to drop my subject. Perhaps i should have listened to him....but i don't regret taking physics as i enjoyed the whole process..Also, i've never been good in Science. I'm just glad that i can still take science in FOS NUS. and even to get accepted in Engin..that's a real surprise. but for a basic degree, the most important thing is to do well. Hence, it doesn't make sense to do something i'm not good at.
Oh wells...this entry is really long...but it kind of sorted out my thoughts...NUS.here i come!
Xiu Min @ 9:01 AM
